End of 2013

Well actually I don't really feel like writing this. But since this is a tradition of mine so what to do? LOL As usual, I never achieve everything I listed out for my 2013 new year wishlist. Especially this one - I hope to lose weight...

My 2013 is like a roller coaster year. It has its ups and downs. Like a tangent graph. Although this year is not as epic as 2012 (when I left Hong Kong) but its still a very memorable year for me. As I was lucky enough to meet a bunch of nice friends and unlucky enough to lose them. But of course, I still have a group of buddies that'll never leave me alone. =) And that's enough for me.

Facebook has this kinda app called 2013 review. Do you know what has it showed up when I click into it? Infusion. UFO. Night Cycling. Ya. Memories. Nice memories of us. (Oh gosh I feel like texting you again and say let the bygone be bygone blah blah blah. But I know this doesn't help our friendship...) So first lesson learnt in 2013, not every investment repays. Always invest in more than one person. So that all your memories wouldn't be built up by the same person. =)

I am surprise that I have quite a lot of friends who I don't usually hang out with actually do care about me. A lot. So second lesson learnt in 2013, always appreciate the people surrounding you. They might be the one who actually cares more for you than the person you're caring for. Don't blind your eyes. And appreciate them.

I still can't believe that we are like strangers now. You didn't even inform about the Penang trip. And I was so surprised and startled how you can ditch a friend that you know for one and a half year long just because of a person you just get to know for one semester. That's cruel. And there's no turning point for our friendship. And because of you, I even sacrifice a lot of friends. So third lesson learnt in 2013, nothing can last forever. Everything will fade. Its just the matter of time.

I was amaze by how fast things could change. We may be friends today but it doesn't mean we will still be friends tomorrow. So fourth lesson learnt in 2013, people come and go in our life. Just take it easy. After all, we are always alone in our life journey. Admit it. So just learn to be happy with yourself.

Ya. As you can see all my life is about FRIENDS. Of course I do have my own activities. And I do enjoy it when there's no politics involved. Just try your best to do everything without intentionally expressing yourself to others. And never back stabbed others. So fifth lesson learnt in 2013, we all have eyes to witness what others are doing. There is no need to gossip about others. Always know what to say and what not to say. And please, avoid activities when politics and friends are involved.

And the worst thing that I've experienced in 2013 is, karma. So last lesson learnt in 2013, be careful in whatever thing you do. Because karma is real and it does hit back to you. So always be nice to everyone around you and yourself. Really. Karma isn't a joke.

So ya, that's my lesson learnt in 2013. And the most important thing that I've learnt is, FAMILY is the only one who will never abandon you. Whether you're up or down. So APPRECIATE. What I've owned now. Goodbye 2013. Hope everything bad will leave with you. And 2014 will be a brand new year. And everything will be reshuffled again. =)

Cheers.

3 more hours to 2014 =D

Sleepover =)

快乐的时光总过得很快
看着还铺在地上的床铺
总觉得这个 sleepover 太快了

很开心
能再次与你们相聚
虽然很久没见面
可见了面后依然还能像疯婆般地说话
整间餐厅都充满了我们的喧闹声

这时候 我真的相信了
有相同背景长大的朋友
真的比较无所不谈
思想也一样

已经很久没这样
毫无顾虑地酸人
毫无顾虑地大笑
一点也不需要做作

说真的
到现在
我还是有那种兴奋后的空虚感
真的很不想离开这里

真的
很不想长大...

I Wish...

I wish I still have the courage to annoy you in Whatsapp every single day from morning till night.

I wish you still can spam my phone using that stupid long moon message causing my phone to lag.

I wish you still can listen to me when I'm down and give me your super matured advice.

I wish you still can reply me something stupid when I annoy you with my lame jokes.

I wish you still can ask me why for every single stupid questions that you can think about.

I wish I've taken your pen that day.

I wish I've eaten your Mentos.

I wish I've stayed back longer that night.

I wish I've said hi to you that day.

I wish I've never ask you to shut up when you're talking non-stop.

I wish I've told you the truth.

I wish I've never mention about him in front of you.

I wish I wished...

And all I wanted is

I wish I'd turned back that day.

When you've turned back for me...

Just feel like complaning

Omg why do I have so many works to do even when its holiday?

I still have one proposal that I need to start from scratch due on this weekend and I have done nothing.
I am suppose searching for sponsors now but the external proposal is stuck.
I still have so many unread fb messages that I have yet to reply.
And a long waiting list of works to do for  DND preparation.
And also a long waiting to-do list before I go back to Singapore.
OMG OMG OMG
What a busy holiday.

And why am I having food poisoning during this lovely Christmas?
What a holiday...

Music Does Kills

Woah
It has been nearly 2 weeks for me not to listen to any songs.
Not any Chinese nor English songs.
Not any emo nor cheerful songs.
(Except  'Let It Go' from Frozen. )

Woah
No wonder my life is so great and awesome these days.
Sometimes musics does kill, isn't it?

At least I feel much better now.
Away from those sad memories.
At least I'm numb enough now.
When I see your name...

My Very First Branded Handbag =D

Omg
I can't believe this.
My dad just brought me a Guess handbag.
I always wanted to have something that can last longer.
I feel like I'm a Princess again =D

My late 21st birthday present.
And ya.
I think I'm matured enough to carry a Guess?
=D

Skyers. Just Like Old Times...

So, it has been one and a half year since I left Hong Kong. And it has been one year long for us, the Skyers to reunion through Skype.

One Korean, one Japanese plus Taiwanese, one Indonesian, one Nepali, and two Malaysians. Skyers, is what we call ourselves. The reason is simple enough - six of us met and stayed in Simon K.Y. Lee Hall (Sky Lee Hall). We struggled through our hall system and finally get to maintain our  precious stay for our second year in University life. But three of us chose to leave. Including myself.

Just like old time. We joke we laugh we shout. I almost forget I can speak such a fluent English. I miss this accent. This very special accent that only I will have when I speak to you all. =D Ya, as expected I was very outdated. I don't know you all have such interesting lives. This makes mine seems dull compared to you all.

Geek, you had a girlfriend!!! That was so surprising haha. And I never knew you was always visiting my FB page whenever you get on to FB. You even know I deactivated it while my NUS friends never know about it until I told them. That was, a bit touching man. I am glad to hear that your life is interesting and happy there. Really.

I miss those times. And now I know where my next stop is...

 I just realize this is the only complete group photo we had despite we had so many High Table Dinners before.

Our last High Table Dinner in Hong Kong Disney Land. 

(Kin Yong, Clearent, me, Arya, Shoun)

 First HTD in our second semester.

(Kevin, me, Arya)

Our usual casual dinner.

(Kin Yong, Kevin, Arya, me) 

 Our second last HTD.

(Kin Yong, Clearent, me, Arya)

My farewell party before I left. 

(Kin Yong, Kevin, me, Arya)

First Skyers outing after I left.

(Arya, Kevin, Clearent, Jeff, Kin Ying, Shoun)

 Second Skyers outing after I left.

(Kin Yong, Shoun, Kevin, Arya, Clearent)

And finally, our Skype reunion yesterday night. 

A call that lasted for 58:26 min.

Stay happy always guys =)

I am looking forward for our next Skype session!

=D

Hong Kong. 
I'll be there.
Wait for me.
<3

逼自己相信
总有一天
我一定能待朋友如过眼烟云

色既是空
空既是色

我觉得
我真的会迷上这穿白袍的工作
=P

尼姑还俗 =P

天啊
身旁有位好友突然恋爱了
这种感觉
很奇特

一开始还不能接受
怎么一个女人的转变能那么大
还以为她会这样是因为受了刺激
可是看她总能很理智的处理一切
我的心 才稍微放心下来

她说他们要一起出去
她很紧张
Walao eh 你知道我也有多紧张吗
好像是我去 dating 这样
哈哈哈哈哈哈

姐妹
很开心
你终于要嫁出去了
离开了尼姑俺
可我还是很担心
你被人家欺负
所以 如果哪一天他真敢欺负你
告诉我
我会拼了性命也要和他讨回公道
当然 希望不会有这样的一天啦
=D

不要担心还留在尼姑俺的我们
好好寻找自己的幸福去吧~
=)

如果不喜欢我
就请不要看我

如果要看我
也不用看到这样明显
还从头瞄到脚
有时
我还真的很想打你...
=D

Once Upon A Time... I was a princess...

Once upon a time
There was once this kinda friend existed in my life...

When I was having lab at 5pm. I texted him to have dinner at 6pm. Then my phone loss its signal and my lab ended at 7:30pm. My mood was so terrible as I was so stressed up with my lab. So ended up going to his room and find him, expecting he'll scold me like hell for not replying and not informing to be late. But then when he saw me, he just said, wow you must have been stressed up for the lab. Lets go have something nice!
I smiled...

I was rushing my C++ programming assignment. I even skipped my lunch and finally get to hand in at 6pm. I was a zombie at that time when I met him at the walkway. He looked at me. And just said, lets go out and have something nice!
I smiled...

I was so emo in one late night. I texted him and complained. He just said, everything will be okay. Nothing more. 5 minutes later, the guy I liked called me. Even though he's having exam the next day. He comforted me and cheered me up with his lame jokes. Well, in fact I'll be very happy even if he didn't tell me any jokes. Because I get to listen to his voice and that's more than enough. Suddenly my this guy friend appeared in front of me, watching me talking happily with the guy I liked. Then he asked me to go find another friend together. After that, he asked me how was I, I said I'm totally fine. He said, that's why I ask the guy you like to call you. Because only he can cheer you up.
I stunned. And cried after he left...

We were hanging up with a gang of people. Someone I'm not close with. When we ordered foods, I realized I didn't bring enough money so I whispered to him. He passed me his whole wallet. During eating, I was very quiet because I felt awkward. He sensed it. And texted me so I can pretend that I'm busy.
I relieved...

I Skyped with parents. I was in a terrible mood about deciding my uni. I briefly tell him about this as I thought he won't care. He didn't reply my text. After 5 minutes, he appeared outside my room. And he just commanded, lets have a walk. But there was no private area in our hall so we went to another friend's room. The another friend started to talk crap happily so I kept my tears and start to joke around with him. Then he suddenly ask that friend to shut up and listen to me. He said, now tell me what's the problem.
I stunned. And cried. And my another friend was freaked out while passing me tissue papers...

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And many many more stories. Not only him who've done all these to me but also many many other good friends. They are always willing to sacrifice their own time for me. Maybe I was lucky. I met so many friends who are willing to pamper me as I was a Princess. And I was always in my Princess dream until this semester...

What invaded me was self-centered, phantoms, and again, self-centered. I don't mean everyone but ya, most of them. I tried to resist myself from becoming like this. Until one day, I realize I'm no longer patience enough to wait for the late comers; I can put aeroplane in the last minute just because I don't feel like going; I can ignored others message just because I wanna study; I can hurt others feeling simply without regretting. And only until that time I came to realize, I've become a MONSTER. A self-centered one. I've lost to the cruelty of NUS. And some people tell me that this is a process of becoming matured. Is it so?

Once I can accompany my friend walking around the town to seek for doctor; I can skipped my class to buy herbal tea for my friend who's sick; I always deliver medicine or even cook for them when they're sick; I can cook for them even if its 2am in midnight just because they complained they're hungry; I can run down to find a friend in midnight just because he or she is not in a good mood; I can sacrifice my whole night just to listen to some not-so-close friends' mumbling. But now, I don't. Whatever shit happens I'll just tell myself, nah its fine. They'll be fine. Just do your own work will do. What kinda monster I've turned into?

Frankly, I hate myself a lot. But I can't help until I realized I lose a lot of friends. I started to panicked, confused. What did I do wrongly? But they are just behaving in a same way like me. So what else I can do to resist this kinda environment? We all have our own studies, CCAs, private life, and different circles of friends. So maybe we'll think that what we need to do is put ourselves in a comfort zone and just do anything that's BENEFICIAL to us. Ya, to US.

So its this kinda environment where I am living and surviving in now. So inhuman isn't it?
But WHATEVER, I just need to tell myself again and again,
WELCOME to NUS. =)

And ya, I feel better...