不敢太靠近
不敢太依赖
不敢太付出真心

只怕 哪天
我看见你时
会像我现在看见某些朋友一样
宁愿放慢脚步等他离去
也不愿像以前那样
大声地喊他的名字再兴奋地冲上去

一个学期
不长又不短
却能奇迹般地
让原本熟悉的人变陌生
陌生的人却拉进了距离

我们 也会那样吗？

Every time when I decided to step out,
There must be something to hold me back.

I wanted to treat others whole heartedly,
But I know don't care is the safest way.

"Don't ask. Don't feel. Don't take initiative. Don't respond. Don't care.
Stay in your own world and everything will remain peacefully."
Is my principle of life now.

Okay. I think its time to shut down myself again.
I just have too many characteristics problem that I should change and improve before I can step out.

Jia you ba. =)

5 thoughts that will make you instantly happier

Read this from an article. "5 thoughts that will make you instantly happier"

This so true. I always use these thoughts to cheer myself up.
And of course, thanks to you, I become a more cheerful people. Thanks for always recharging me with your positive energy dude. =)

1. This too shall pass. 
Nothing will last forever. If its meant to be, it'll be. Its all fated.

2. You are not alone.
Ya. When I'm suffering from CAs, all my collugue are suffering too. So why should I complain? At least I have friends that can chiong with me together. Someone told me before, ya finals period is tough, but if you chiong with your friends, its better to suffer together than alone. =)

3. Other people have good intentions.
Ya. Maybe they don't meant to hurt me. Maybe they have their own reasons too.
有时，会偶然看出一个人的真本性。但总会想，算了。看在眼里，藏在心里，自己知道就好。=)

4. There's a bright side to every situation.
True. Every incident happens for a reason. Maybe it'll lead you to some unexpected ending. If I never left you, maybe I won't even realize I have so many nice friends surrounding me.

5. Slow down and breathe.
Ya. Sometimes I just like to jog and think about my life. Like reflecting on what am I doing right now and where I should correct myself. 

Wow, I think I am healing in a fast rate now. Maybe I should go and start my #happy100days challenge. haha

I'm an extrovert.

I like to make friends and I enjoy being surrounded by many friends.

I don't mind to be popular, and when I mean popular I mean many people knows about me.

BUT I think this is a bit too much.

When the moment you are walking towards the direction where there stood two "you-kind-see-him-before" guys, you can hear a whisper before you reach. "Eh, jerwei is coming." Then they'll wave friendly to you when you pass by. 

OMG I don't even know what's his name and he knows mine???!!! @.@

This is too much. Way too much.

I don't wanna be known in pharmacy.

I just wanna be an anonymous unknown person.

I'm so afraid of gossips especially in this cohort...

Haix.

It's time to be low profile.

装得太久了
都不知道自己是真开心还是假开心
只知道
没有人喜欢参跟容易伤心的人
所以
我努力的每天都微笑着
直到自己麻木
直到知道自己有事却不知道如何述说

很希望
有一天我能放下这沉重的包袱
让自己能真真正正的开心



有时觉得
曾经那个能够傻守在巴士站假装巧遇你的时候
才是我真正开心的时候
真的很怀念那时的我...

"11 Reasons Why You Don’t Have Many Friends"

I think my personality has some problem and I am really not a good friend. After reading this I 100% confirm I am a bad ass. I did everything in this NEVER-TO-DO-LIST.

Seems like its still a long journey to make myself towards a more perfect one...
But its still a good read of the day.

Finding and keeping friends in adulthood is different from the days when you played on the playground at recess. It takes work to maintain friendships over time. If you don’t have many friends, it’s important to consider the possible reasons why.

1. You Complain A Lot

If you’re constantly complaining about your job, lack of money, or unfair life, people won’t care to spend a lot of time with you. Complaining gets old fast. Try to develop a more positive attitude and look for more interesting topics to discuss rather than what’s going wrong in your life.

2. You Ditch Your Friends When You’re in a Relationship

If you’re guilty of ditching your friends every time you begin dating someone new, it’s likely your friends won’t sit around and wait to hear your breakup story. Instead, they’ll move on without you. It’s important to find a balance between spending time with your pals and your latest romantic interest.

3. You’re Selfish

Consider whether or not being selfish contributes to the fact that you don’t have friends. Friendship requires you to give sometimes, even when you don’t feel like it. If you’re only willing to do what you want, when you want it, it’s unlikely that your friends will tolerate it for very long.

4. You Don’t Care About Your Friends

If you don’t care what’s happening in your friends’ lives, your friends might not keep you around. It’s important to show interest in how your friends are doing. People will likely grow insulted if you don’t care to ask about them or you don’t care about their feelings.

5. You Stir Up Drama

If you’re guilty of stirring up trouble, it’s likely that people will try to avoid the drama. If you blame others, don’t keep secrets, or try to irritate people on purpose, you’ll likely have difficulty convincing people why they should stick around.

6. You Keep Score

Keeping score has no place in true friendship. If you try to keep score about whose turn it is to choose where you’re going to dinner or whose turn it is to call who, you will likely turn your friends away. Be willing to give to the relationship, rather than focus on trying to keep everything fair.

7. You Get Jealous

If you feel jealous when your friend buys a new car, gets a promotion at work, or enters into a new relationship, it’s likely going to lead to problems. It’s important to celebrate with your friends and feel happy for them when they succeed. If you’re always feeling jealous, you’re attitude will likely shine through, even if you try to hide it.

8. You Expect Too Much From Friends

If you expect your friends to always be available or always meet your needs, you’ll be disappointed. Your friends will hurt your feelings sometimes and will likely disappoint you from time to time. But that doesn’t meant they aren’t good people or that you shouldn’t remain friends with them. Practice forgiveness when your feelings get hurt.

9. You Gossip

If you gossip non-stop, people will recognize that you likely talk about them as well. Don’t talk negatively about other people or spread rumors. Instead, show that you can be trusted to respect people’s privacy.

10. You Bully Your Friends

Bullying doesn’t end in high school for many people. If you’re guilty of bossing your friends around or making demands, it’s likely that people won’t like you. It’s okay to be assertive with people, but make sure you don’t cross the line into behaving aggressively. Respect other people’s rights and work on developing healthy relationships.

11. You Don’t Get Out Enough

Of course, there is also a good chance that not having friends isn’t related to a specific character flaw. Instead, it might just be because you haven’t had the opportunity to meet people whose company you enjoy. If that’s the case, create opportunities to meet other people based on your interests and activities and be willing to take a chance on striking up a conversation with a stranger. It just might turn into a lifelong friendship.

Tonight is the most relax and happiest moment after a hectic week:

Take a super long nap until I missed dinner time.
Then watch drama while eating dinner.
Then start to sing free karaoke in room.
Then start to read random articles and YouTube videos.
Then went for a long jog and perspire.
Then come back and take a hot bath.
Then lay in bed doing facial mask while texting and listening to music.
Then realize I'm damn hungry and tell myself,
NAH ITS OKAY. Supper is ONLY allowed for tonight.
Then I eat happily in front of my laptop again.

WHAT A MOST RELAX AND HAPPIEST NIGHT I EVER HAD.
=DDD