It has been one whole week since my preceptor-ship started.
And I truly regretted. For not swapping from polyclinic to community pharmacist.
Not that I wanna complain. But I rather travel further to learn something more. More than just pick packing medicines like a robot everyday.
I don't like this job. I learn nothing but the flow of medicine dispensing in hospital (which I've already learned three years ago).
And then I started to confuse. Is this what I really want to be for the rest of my life? Ya, I know this is not the only job scope as a Pharmacist. I need to be in charge of P-sales and dispensing medicine as well. But is this what I really wanted as helping others? I don't know.
I admit I am a person who doesn't like to live for a plain and boring life.
I like challenge. I like unexpected stuffs.
And so I lost my target in my life, once again.
I was acting like a zombie for this whole week, and its just the starting,
I keep convince myself that this is just the beginning and maybe it'll improve on the second week as I'll be used to the routine soon.
Everyday I just hope to rush back to my room. Keep myself away from the reality by keep watching dramas.
I don't even bother to talk nor complain about my day after a long day work. I just wanna keep my mind shut away from these.
I don't understand why all my friends can keep sharing their work. Maybe they really do enjoy it since they are not working in Polyclinic.
Am I complaining again? I don't know. Maybe I should just appreciate that at least I am helping somebody now? Can't believe I'll be doing these again in next summer and after I graduated.
The only excitement in my life now is BioBiz. Although I have to spam all the emails but I do enjoy it, at least.
Ahhhhhhh. I don't see any goal in my life. My mind is blank for most of the time during this period. Not even thinking about somebody as I have nobody to like now. Am I gonna live like a zombie like this for the rest of my life?
I loss my passionate in life. I need to find it back...
