Library Hectic

Life in NUS really isn't that easy. Especially during exam period.
Everyday we get to wake up at 6:30 am just to book seats in library.
Every night we had to climb up the terrifying staircase back to our residence since we always missed the last bus.

I have no idea whether we should be proud or be sad for this kinda life. But I'm glad, to have a bunch of friends struggling and striking to survive with me everyday. Supporting and pushing me beyond my limit.

What I wanna say is, thanks guys. For making my toughest time an enjoyable one. =)

p/s: Hope you all won't kill me for posting these photos =P

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When I typed something wrong, I'll backspace.
When I experienced something bad, I'll ERASE them.

Eating Alone

LOL
I found this funny although it sounds pathetic.
I dunno how many of those University students outside here dare to eat in canteen ALONE.
But for me, I will not and NEVER will do this.
So today, it happens that all of my friends are busy.
At first I planned to skip my meal because I'm on diet.
But then my stomach grumbles just before dinner time.
I looked at my clock. It shows 5:34pm
OH YESH!!!
Its much much earlier than usual dinner time for others. (Seniors)
So I immediately changed up and rush down to canteen to da bao my dinner.
And I was so alert to the surroundings just for one sake --
To prevent meeting those known but yet unfamiliar people seeing me da bao food.
I dunno why but I just feel embarrassed to da bao or eat alone.
For me it has another definition - I have no friends...

So yeah, its not easy to live in Uni.
Even during lunch or dinner time.
And forgive me,
I just can't be independant and thickened my face to eat alone.
I never will do nor learn that =P

What should I do?

Just came back to my room.

Was having gathering with my friends and crap a lot of nonsense.

The laughter stopped as I reached PGP.

The fear inside me started to grow.

The loneliness started to invade every inch of my body.

I'm very afraid.

I don't usually remember my dreams but this is too horrible for me to forget.

The same nightmare repeated over and over again.
I almost scream.

I dunno what should I do besides hiding myself up behind my mask.

I don't feel comfortable.

Coming back to PGP means I have to face all of these problems.

Problems without solution.

Could someone tell me

What should I do?

眼泪

把眼泪抹干净
收拾好心情
继续上路

坚信 世上没有办不到的事！

最幸福的幸福

今天有个香港的senior来问我
我在新加坡有比较开心吗？
我想了想
回答说
“我不知道，因为我不想去比较。
两边都有两边的好，两边都有不同的开心。”

我知道
这话很假
我也知道
我经常去比较
也常向我这里的朋友抱怨
我是多么的想香港

但
我好像从来都没告诉他们
我在这里是多么的开心
不是因为别的
而是因为有了你们
=）

是你们
让我的生活简单却不乏味
是你们
让我看开了“没香港也能活下去“的道理
是你们
让我忘却那种种伤痛

有时候想
其实
这样的生活也不错
为简单的幸福而微笑
是最幸福的幸福
=）

NUS Offer Letter?

During my lunch break today, as usual I was having my quick lunch in room while randomly browse through my email. And then something popped out. "APPLICATION OUTCOME TO NUS - PHARMACY"

Stunned. With my eyes and mouth wide opened. I can't believe this. I thought I was being rejected since its three months ago when I applied for NUS. My heart stopped beating for one second, and then continued with accelerated speed. I grabbed my phone and called Kevin. So this guy was still sleeping though its already noon time. He sounded shock (for me) when he heard this news. And then what he told me was, he's going to take his bath first. And then left me alone with this shocking email in my room. I called another friend, Chi Yung. Again, I heard shock-ness and happiness and disappoint-ness through the phone. But nobody gave me a solution, whether should I tell my parents or not, whether to accept or not.

And then Kevin came down to my room. He helped me to call his friend currently studying in NUS and seek for more information. Then he told me, NUS is a not a bad choice, especially for Pharmacy. So he asked me to decide by myself and then he walked away. Left me alone again, in my room.

I really dunno what to do man. I still have class after this and my finals are coming soon. And tonight I even have high table dinner. And I even plan to finish my microprocessor revision this afternoon. GOSH seriously. What am I suppose to do? =(((